Friday, February 4, 2011

Egad!!!The results are in!!

Alot of times last term as i struggled hard with the rigours of running a purely technical masters degree,i often wondered,"T,what have you gotten yourself into again?But i wanted to; i need(ed) to proof somehow someway that i can close this deal; that i know this stuff, and i'm not only-as i have never failed to reconsider myself- just a freaking quack who's been lucky all over the place".Back home in the working professional terrain,i'd also often quietly shake my head at myself and mutter,"you do know that someday, they'll discover that you trully do not know anything,don't you!".I still don't consider myself a genius.I struggle way too hard. And so,you can imagine how many nightmares i've had waiting for this day to come. The first set of results. As in,literally,i had nightmares.

The mail came in to all M.Sc students yesterday.Informing us that by 12pm,our results would be loaded onto the portal. They warned that often the school system crashes around that time due to the number of students all logging in at the exact same time. (Go figure).We had a lecture in Adv.Finance Theory and Practice that was to span from 9.30am to 12.30pm. Most students did not show up. I don't know how i managed through the hours, but as with the few of us who braved it, by the time the minutes was nearing 12pm, nobody was with the lecturer anymore who was blabbing complex graphs and theories all to himself. Sauvy phones and 4g gadgets started rearing their heads as everyone started frantic efforts to logg into the results portal.(I tell you, i'm getting too old for this kind of anxiety). My class is very competitive. 80% smart ass asian folks,a number of indians,only a handful of proper british,one ameriacn,some other mixes,one Tanzanian girl,one ghanian girl,and me the only black naija dude.

My laptop was in my bagpack;i fingered it ever so often,but i was going to feign cool till the end of the class.I took down furtive notes till my pen broke under the pressure,pretended to be listening hard,whilst within my heart was palpitating as every other second,somebody next to me would finally enter the online portal,sight his results and let out a muffled gasp. One particular girl's eyes went wild as she stared into whatever feedback the 4g gadget finally gave to her. I couldnt take it anymore when finally one girl let out a shriek. The lecturer frowned,but he knew what was going on, so he persisted with his theories even louder. I pulled out the laptop,pretended to be cool,calm,collected,and laid it gently on my laps. Whatever may come,i would take it like a man. The laptop booted fast (oh,the repairs so far has been hi-tech sw-sweet!),the portal wouldnt open, the systems were jammed. F/*K!My hands were trembling; i pocketed them. I could spoil my built up swagger now,could i?!The lecturer announced he was done. FINALLY! The class emptied in seconds-people streaming fast to the computer labs. I waited behind till everybody was gone.I rebooted the results finally downloaded into a PDF with the summary beneath:

The overall progression decision for MSc in Finance and Investments in Term 1 is:
PROCEED - All modules passed at the required standard

*Sigh* I am tired right now. I'm not sure my exact feeling...grateful certainly, but mostly worn out! ...must you know details?!!!Let's just say,as always,God was partial to me,and i did not refuse his overexuberance.

I just want to be quiet right now; so i've retreated to my room.Somebody mentioned to go celebrate,but i'm not up to that. Moreso,some of my folks didnt do too well/as well.

Term2: Advanced Financial Econometrics, Technical Trading, Valuations of InvestmentsII,Advanced Finance Theory&Practice,Dissertation kick off. I still wonder what i'm doing, and still shake my head and mutter,jeez,if we can get through this, if we can just get through this...we will get through this.
I admitt that it's really all snatzy stuff-the modules,and the stuff they teach is out of this world. Coming from my "darker world",as i have concluded finance to be back home,it's like jet age stuff. Complex derivatives,options,and hi-tech financial instrument type jargons. It all would be cool if i seriously really was a genius like the rest of them. But oh well...fake it till we make it...or faith it till you make it. Either ways,make it.

The problem with a distinction is the pressure. It's like a gold coin dangled enviously before you. And once you've tasted of its possibility; you want to see it through to the end.The Quiet is....Thank you God.

On other T.Notes,Gist dey!But first,blog rounds i have missed!


  1. awwww congrats baby! so true about the pressure of a distinction. good to know ur lappy is back. i missed u SMALL sha...mmuahhh! gimme gist sharply o!

  2. Thank you God! I'm so happy for you. Just keep it up and I'm sure that distinction will be yours!

  3. @Beuatiful:Yeah Babes,Lappy's back in all her full slim,sexy glory!Ahhh,the joy of having such a beast in your room!Lol! MISSED YOU!!!Let's discuss those kisses further.*wink*wink*

    @Myne:Ooooh thank you!Bless!


  4. I am glad you got a distinction!MSc in Finance and Investments? Chei this school dey chop money sha!!

    As for coming from a darker world, I hear you! I struggled a bit as well, especially with the thesis bit.

    That said, arent you glad for the experience? Was doing my blog rounds when I saw this great one again by Marilyn. I pray we all have the opportunity of experiencing life outside our culture or comfort zone!

    Marilyns blog=

    worth the read, totally!

  5. @Mena:Hey,Hey,Tis only 1st term results~!One more term and a dissertation to go.Amd yup,Finance n Investments.Did u also study along that line? As per school chopping money,abeg,talk am again!!!

    Hey at least u finished alive and in one whole piece!Albeit a long sigh,yup,the experience is totally worth it. If Naija can pay me in terms of fine thousands,i'll be willing to return and impart knowledge. It's annoying tho,and funny how there are so many naija folks who are have done exceptionally well in further studies and could actually have good stuff to offer our failing economy,yet the government doesnt even give a rats ass!

    They can't even foster scholarships. I SMH!

    Will check out that blog in a min.


  6. Congrats hun!!!! come back with the gist asap abeg!

  7. Tnotes, yes I did something similar and dissertation was hell still havent gotten over it.

    So you dont want to go back home?

    You do know the tories are scrapping the psw thingy in April right? And have made the other option tighter than a rats a@ss?

    Dont worry if you blasted 1st semeseter, you would blast second..Its the dissertaion bit you should be worried about, especially if you are as impatient as I am. :)

    p.s: check the blog in ya own time.

  8. My blog or yours,same message resounds!:

    See this Chic(pronounced as in Francias chic!),so you also did the Finance/Investments grind!You promptly need to be on my off-blogger contacts!Networking is key!...and oh well,i'll briefly put aside my sworn enmity to you!

    Can't find your email link,so drop me a PM:

  9. @Harry: Thank you very much,kind sir.

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  11. @Mena:Heyyyyy,you have no right deleting comments from my blog!!!lol!ok,dropped u a mail.

  12. Congratulations...yeah to great things for ya

  13. Çongrats bro. Thank God those sleepless nights are yielding good results.

  14. Thank God. Congrats hon, you will succeed in all you do in Jesus Name.

  15. Hey T....Congrats...You're at Aston huhn...Great school...x